there so much i want to tell you.
but i also want to know more about you from you.
won't you listen to me for a while?
there's just so much, so much i want to share with you.

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This one goes out to the man who minds the miracles
This one goes out the ones in need
This one goes out the sinner and the cynical
This ain't about no apology
This road was paved by the hopeless and the hungry
This road was paved by the winds of change
Walking beside the guilty and the innocent
How will you raise your hand when the call your name?

for the words left unsaid.

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this spot is for rocs
which i will cover some
other time. teehee :D
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funfair was really ... SHORT.
it was only for a few hours.
and i wanted to spend all my money on food.
but they all sell out real fast.
and the haunted house.
i was supposed to be scared.
but funny, literally, me and my friends were laughing during the "tour".
and when we came out, there were some random people outside,
and they were like, "why are they laughing? it's damn scary".
and laugh laugh laugh.
yeah, and duty at the game booth was really tiring.
there were weird kids.
seriously.
there was this girl, she laugh hysterically while throwing the ball at the can tower.
she was like on drugs man!

and so, hols have long started already.
it's not really holidays.
i have trainings on mondays, wednesdays and fridays which suck
cause i have one in the morning and one in the evening.
tuition has started already.
sheesh.
i hate tuition.
but sec three is going to be really tough,
and i was thinking i could go through a personality change.
lazy pig chrissy change into hardworking chrissy! :D
yeah.
you know what sucks to be the third kid?
the third kid has to exceed BOTH the first and the second.
yeah.
so i'm going to STUDY.
YES, STUDY.
just you wait world, CHRIS IS GOING TO EMBRACE HER INNER GEEK!

next, AFA.
AFA is like, OTAKU HEAVENNNNNNN!
i spent so much.
i bought figmas, mangas, badges and models.
its so awesome.
i wanna cosplay CCS next year :D
it'll be awesome. really.

oh right.
and on monday, 231109,
i fell and hit my head O:
yeaaah. it sucked.
i had headache for quite some time.
but no worries!
i still have my memories :D
all i have left from the fall is a graze on my elbow and knee.
which sucks more,
cause my graze on the elbow reopened
when i hit my staircase railing.
how clumsy can i get man!

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I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

i really wonder sometimes.
if people ever noticed the little section at the end of the post.
the little section which has lyrics most of the times.
there are reasons they're there no?
weeeelll, they're not always lyrics.
yup but google most of it and you'll probably discover they're lyrics!
so now you know.
you gonna scroll through all my post eehhhh?
i can tell :9
i've been wanting to blog about rocs and funfair.
buuut. my list of memorable quotes are no where to be found :/
hmm.
i have a rather strange feeling that i'm being avoided.
and my dreams are taking a huge turn.
could it be that something's happening?
you know my dreams sometime come true? :b
like, ever though it may not entirely be the same but it's along the line?
yup, so i keep my dreams really close.
dreams do give me inspiration too!
cause sometimes they can really be whacky.
and quote quote "chris has weird dreams".
yup that's what happens when you appear in my dreams ;)

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Do you think I'm special?
Do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear, and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking the ocean of faces?
It can't be possible... the rain can fall
Only when its over our heads.
The sun is shining everyday, but it's far away.
Over the world that's dead.

sheesh.
chris is feelin' preeeettyyyy lazy.
i was about to blog about ROCs and funfair
but.
maybe tomorrow? :D

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you're the kind of friend who always bends when i'm broken
like remember when
you took my heart and put it back together again

"Okay girls, today is the last time I'm going to talk to you about your results as a form teacher. Some of you made it to the top band of the cohort, some not so good."
mrs chan handed us our results one by one.
according to register number.
yes. register number.
as usual i am the last.
last.
christelle beside me, with cheryl and felicia got their results already.
mine was coming oh so very slowly.
"chrissy i'm scared."
"okay, hold on dear."
and then there were sudden outbursts of squealing.
and again.
and again.
and again.
yong mei xin christabel's result slip was the last of the stack.
i just sat there, alone. trying not to cry even before the result slip was in my hands.
just when i need a friend to hug, they're all jumping up and down.
greaaaat.
when i got my slip, i read it.
over and over and over again.
"we are happy to off the 8 subject combination to Yong Mei Xin Christabel."
my overall average score was 0.18% below criteria.
my rank average was 0.17% below criteria.
screw it i hate crying.
it makes my breathing funny.
like i'm hyperventilating you know? just not like that.
so i ran.
how i wish i could run away from reality.
i'm just going to be sad and depressed and emo for a while.
to flush all my sadness out.
so when i go for ROCs,
i will have fun.
nothing will ever, ever stop me.

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Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
The webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
And hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

22 October is the new official worst day of my life.
Chris the Great has fallen.

该死

EXAMS ARE OVEEEEEEEER!
this time, it's real :D
recently had physics, bio, chinese paper 2 and listening and ART!
physics sucked.
we had a crossword puzzle question
and i didn't know what a variable resister's name was
somehow i kept thinking it started with an A.
then comes along the word/phrase/letters "ALU"
serious.
so in the end, a variable resister which was supposed to be RHEOSTAT
became ALUNATOR. or something like that.
and the high resistance thing which was supposed to be NICHROME
became ALUMRINE.
smart. i know.
bio was okaaaay.
CHINESE PAPER 2 WAS AWESOME! I READ THE PASSAGE BEFORE :D
HAHA it was in a newspaper. the little section for passages like those ((((:
and then on the last day of exams.
everyone on facebook was like
"CURSE YOU ART"
"LIKE THIS IF YOU DON'T LIKE ART"
"STUPID ART"
and stuff like that.
surprisingly, no one cared about chinese listening. hmm.
and mrs chan didn't want to accept my art folio ;_;
so i had to bring this giant rectangle back home.
made me look like an art student though xD

since it was the last day of exams,
everyone was going out!
except yours truly and a dear friend.
so the date-less decided to help mrs chan in the fun fair decoration.
let me tell you it was NOT FUN AT ALL.
founder's day decoration was much much funner. and less tiring.
we had to twirl vines and stuff. cause the fun fair theme this year was...
"all things bright and beautiful"
or something like that.
like you know, all things, animals, jungle, forest, see the connection?
yeah.
SO ON THE FUNFAIR DAY, YOU SEE A VINE WITH 3 LEAVES PER SECTION, THAT'S PROBABLY MINE.
HAHA. don't ask :x

exams are over and there are lots of things to look forward to!
1. ROCs! first thing in my list :9
2. Party at Anne's!
3. Christelle's belated birthday party! since her birthday was during exam period hehs.
4. Watching Imagine That!
5. Probably alot more :D

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Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest